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That is why, from the beginning, we have worked to deploy every tool at our disposal to respond to this crisis. Today, there are more than 20,000 people working around the clock to contain and clean up this spill. I have authorized 17,500 National Guard troops to participate in the response. More than 1,900 vessels are aiding in the containment and cleanup effort. We have convened hundreds of top scientists and engineers from around the world. This is the largest response to an environmental disaster of this kind in the history of our country.

We have also ordered BP to pay economic injury claims, and this week, the federal government sent BP a preliminary bill for $69 million to pay back American taxpayers for some of the costs of the response so far. In addition, after an emergency safety review, we are putting in place aggressive new operating standards for offshore drilling. And I have appointed a bipartisan commission to look into the causes of this spill. If laws are inadequate, they will be changed. If oversight was lacking, it will be strengthened. And if laws were broken, those responsible will be brought to justice.

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Many of you wanted government OUT of the business' of America...until now.  There are people who simply hate him and will do all they can to discredit his efforts.  I realize some people are just prejudice, hateful,  and very pro business. 
I agree we should look deeply into this spill, who is responsible, and bring them to justice. Laws should be changed right away.  I do not always agree with Obama on certain issues, but I do hope he is organizing to help the state of florida and their response to the spill right now.
 

I found a good article regarding this statement as many of us, get confused about its origins and what it means.

So I will try to share this with you.

Lately, from politicians, radio-talk show hosts, and other commentators, we have heard that we should forget about democracy, because the U.S.A. is a republic. But some questions are being posed by democracy advocates: What is a republic? What is a democracy? Should the United States be a mere republic, or a genuine democracy?

Republicans and other democracy detractors point to the U.S. Constitution and bits of history, and say, "See, the Founding Fathers who wrote the Constitution gave us a Republic. They believed democracies were dangerous and unworkable."

On that, they are partly right, but they fail to mention that democracies and republics overlap. They are not opposites. And they fail to account for the history of American government since 1788, much less the debates that took place in America prior to 1788, when the U.S. Constitution was substituted for the Articles of Confederation.

Democracy means rule of the people. The two most common forms of democracy are direct democracy and representative democracy. In direct democracy everyone takes part in making a decision, as in a town meeting or a referendum. The specific rules may vary: perhaps everyone must agree, perhaps there must be consensus, perhaps a mere majority is required to make a decision. The other, better known form of democracy is a representative democracy. People elect representative to make decisions or laws. Again, specifics vary greatly.

And, surprise, a representative democracy is a kind of republic. What distinguishes a republic is that it has an elected government. Representative democracies are, therefor, a kind of republic. Self-appointed governments such as monarchies, dictatorships, oligarchies, theocracies and juntas are not republics. However, this still allows for a wide spectrum. The classic is the Roman Republic, in which only a tiny percentage of citizens, members of the nobility, were allowed to vote for the Senators, who made the laws and also acted as Rome's supreme court. Most people would say that Rome was a Republic, but not a democracy, since it was very close to being an oligarchy, rule by the few. Although the Roman Republic was not a dictatorship (until Augustus Caesar grabbed power), it did not allow for rule of the people. In both theory and practice the Soviet Union, that late evil empire, was a republic (Union of Soviet Socialist Republics) because the lawmakers were elected, if only by the Communist Party members.

Beginning with the Constitution's adoption, America has been a Republic. But the dominant trend over the last two centuries has been to make it into a democracy as well, a representative democracy, also know as a democratic republic. True, the creation of the Constitution itself was partly a reaction against democracy. In states like Pennsylvania, Rhode Island, and Massachusetts, the situation was getting way too democratic for the monied aristocracy that had, since the American Revolution, refused to share power with ordinary men.

The causes of the American Revolution were many, but for the monied class there were three principal aims. They sought self-government: that is, they sought to rule the colonies themselves, to further their own interests. They sought to protect the institution of slavery, which had been endangered by Lord Mansfield's ruling against it in the Sommersett case of 1772. And land speculators like George Washington sought to seize more Native American Indian land, which the British had outlawed.

But to win the American Revolution this predatory elite needed help. Their own rhetoric about freedom and equality led to widespread demands for the right to vote: universal suffrage. In other words, the people began demanding democracy. Even the slaves (white and black alike) demanded to be freed and allowed to vote.

After the British were defeated a centralized, national government was seen by George Washington and company not as a method of extending freedom and the right to vote, but as a way of keeping control in the hands of rich. They wrote several anti-democratic provisions into the U.S. Constitution. Slavery was institutionalized. The Senate was not to be elected directly by the people; rather Senators were to be appointed by state legislatures. The President was not to be directly elected by the voters, but elected through an electoral college. The Supreme Court was to be appointed. Only the House of Representatives was elected directly.

More important to our democracy-versus-republic debate, the U.S. Constitution left the question of who could vote in elections to each individual state. In most states only white men who owned a certain amount of property could vote. So, on the whole, the first federal government that met in 1789 was a republic with only a fig-leaf of democratic representation. This is what today's commentators mean when they say America is a republic, not a democracy.

Fortunately (for the democrats), the early federal government was not very powerful. In state after state it became easier for white males to qualify to vote. And slowly, decade after decade, our republic became a democratic republic.

At the national level the major steps toward democracy can be marked by amendments to the U.S. Constitution. The Bill of Rights guaranteed limits to the power of the federal government. The Thirteenth Amendment abolished slavery. The Fourteenth Amendment effectively extended the vote to all adult male citizens, including ex-slaves, by penalizing states that did not allow for universal male suffrage. The Fifteenth Amendment explicitly gave the right to vote to former slaves. After the Supreme Court ruled that the Fourteenth and Fifteenth Amendments did not extend suffrage to women, a vigorous campaign for the vote was launched by women, who received the vote through the Nineteenth Amendment in 1920.

But the main Amendment that tipped the scales from the national government of the United States being a mere republic to being a true representative democracy was the often-overlooked Seventeenth Amendment, which took effect in 1913. Since 1913 the U.S. Senate has been elected directly by the voters, rather than being appointed by the state legislatures. That makes the national government democratic in form, as well as being a republic.

There will always be anti-democratic forces in any society. The most blatantly undemocratic feature of U.S. government in the 20th century was the unconstitutional but systematic disenfranchisement of African-American and other non-white citizens. This came to an end in the 1950's and 1960's with a series of Supreme Court decisions against segregation laws, the passage of Civil Rights Acts, and the passage of the Twenty-Fourth Amendment outlawing poll taxes. We even lowered the voting age to 18 with the Twenty-Sixth Amendment in 1971.

There are no longer any voter-qualification impediments to democracy in the United States. But many have noted that the will of the people has tended not to prevail, and that a majority of people eligible to vote are so discouraged that they do not vote. The main reason for this is the buying and selling of elections and politicians by the wealthier class of citizens and their special interest groups. A year or more before elections take place, the winner is decided by those who vote with dollars. But this is a defect in democracy, not a reason to abandon it. The answer is to cure the defect, not to attempt to destroy our representative democracy.

February 19, 2002
Please circulate freely. William P. Meyers can be reached at bill@williampmeyers.org

See also: Democracy or Republic: Ron Paul Taken Apart

Yesterday, I was at the church, and overheard the priest and my fellow friends bashing our President. I was so disappointed to hear them call him a jerk, that I was shocked.  I hardly know these people, and thats the truth. Both are new to me.  They were saying that they promised no abortion in the new healthcare and then did it anyway...liars and cheats!  Where do they get their information?

So I went to the computer and there was a letter from my Senator answering my question. Was Abortion part of the deal I asked him.  He said to go to my site.  I did.  There is a letter there to all saying, that he is pro life. He said that the new healthcare bill will not allow ELECTIVE ABORTIONS to be included.  The rules of abortion remain the same as they have always been in your state.  No insurance company may allow them.

Where are people getting their information?  The Radio?  Rush Limbaugh?  That man can tell you anything he wants to tell you, and its the truth to you?  So much hatred that you cannot believe even your own Senators or Congressman?  You see,  the speech of the many on radio is so divisive, so outragious, so disrespectful and damaging.  It is unravelling the very trust we have in our leaders, our parties, and now our family and friends...YES even there.  Im getting hate mail from my ONE family and ONE friend now.  People you need to start acting in a civil manner and learn to respect each other and different views.  Im shocked at the behaviors of people.  Discusted. READ the top news today regarding Militia groups targeting all our governors and our leaders, police etc.  They have united to destroy the gov.  YOU SAY ...WE DIDNT DO THAT. ITS NOT US?  I HAVE EARLY POSTS REGARDING WHERE THIS KIND OF HATE TALK WILL TAKE US.  AND SO ITS NO SURPRISE.  GOOD BYE DEMOCRACY.

The danger becomes ever so real, when your beloved Rush is going on and on with his irrisponsible news without facts...and some idiot out there working in a nuclear plant decides TO HELL WITH IT...LETS JUST END IT.  Why would such a thing happen?  Because the Rush doesnt think that the rules of ettiquete apply, he can just do whatever he wants, and say whatever he wants - and when sh... hits the fan. He leaves. My friend you are left with the damage when some crazy decides this great country is going to hell...as Rush would have them believe.  It isnt.  But its real enough to some Joe working the buttons. 

YES I am very upset today.  This talking head has riled up people with lies and more lies to distort the reality.  That makes me really upset.

 I saw an interesting show on Oprah. It was a picture of the life of woman around the world. I think it was a rerun. However I thought that the woman of Denmark had it great.  They have high taxes at 15%, but they say they get alot of bang for their bucks.  First, education to college is free. So all woman choose a career based not on money but talents.  If you lose your job, the gov pays you for four years if necessary. No one is homeless.  Woman, are happier.  All child care is cheap. So working is a plus and no worries. They work 9 to 5 and the family dinner is manditory in their minds.  I did not see TV's in their homes.  They said that they concentrate on one another and have fun.  They are very happy.  Most woman, marry only because they have found their 'friend' and 'lover'.  So if they get sick, healthcare is free.  They said they don't think of it as Socalized gov but a CIVILIZED GOV.  They seem to have said that keeping people happy and healthy is the true measure of happiness. Taking care of each other.  They can park their children outside for a nap, and not worry about child molestors or baby snatchers because we take care of each other.  The home has no 'stuff' because they dont have time to clutter their homes with stuff...they would rather spend time with each other having fun.  I dont know, it sounds like a heaven on earth to me.  I have always believed that America should have everything given to them, education, healthcare, and elderly care all free.  With our society as it is, they have this mentality that everyone should pay for it, thereby enslaving the tax payer to support corporate America?  Its not working.  We have ended up with Poor and Rich.  They have equality amoung all.  No one seems unhappy.  Yet we are.  There are too many Americans having to choose no health, so they dont go bankrupt.  Something is terribly wrong with our society when we can spit on people because they aren't educated, because they are not insured, because they are out of work.  We really need to change this.  Imagine being married because you want to be married not because you have to be married.  Imagine working at a job because you love it, and want to be there.  Thats a luxury.  Well, it sure gave me room to pause at an ideal life I have always thought possible...just not here.

I remember I was coming home from work in my 1968 plymouth. Listening to the radio, it was a cold grey day. There was a break in the music and the weather man said that a blizzard was on the way. He said, it should be here within the hour.  I thought to myself, this sounds bad. I have never seen a blizzard.  I got home and my husband was getting ready to leave for the grocery store.  I got out of my car and he got in.  He did not get five miles and the snow was already blinding.  The store shelves were near empty he said. He got what he could and sped home the ten miles sliding as the snow was packing quick.  We got the kids home from school already. Then we watched the weather from the windows. The temps were dropping and the winds were picking up. The snow was coming down so hard we could not see outside. The house we were renting was old. The walls were thin, and the foundations were breezy anyway. I wondered if it would hold up.  By the next morning, the snow was up against the door handles. Drifts were ten feet high and you could not see anything but white, and it was still coming down!  Snow and more snow.  We could not go outside.  The wcf was -5 and the winds were awful.  Three days later the snow stopped.  Our roads were ten feet drifts for a mile.  The National Guard came two days later. It took two giant trucks to smash into the drifts.  The roads everywhere  were so heavy with snow, they were tunnels.  They said that I 70 was one big sheet of ice after a week. I worked in a hospital, they had patients but very little help.  No one could get in.  Whoever was left, had the shifts for a week.  Awful.  We ate jelly and peanut butter sandwiches for lunches. Trying to keep our food supplies from drying up.  The walls of our old rental were iced up on the inside. We wore coats inside the house, kept blankets on the couch for the kids.  They were amused an scared too.  We all were afraid.  People who ventured out there usually didnt make it back inside.  You could get lost when the snows were coming down.  We were finally able to get out of the house after a full week.  That was pretty bad though.  So, I guess I am saying that if the weatherman tells you a blizzard is coming, believe me you have to get ready quick by stocking up.  I felt really bad for the seniors and the animals out there.  Our power remained on, but if I remember there were some without power and some people froze to death. Mainly the elderly.  Not too many, maybe about two people died.  One old woman ventured outside and froze to death trying to get back in. 

This winter is already a bad one.  But no call for blizzards ...yet.  For those of you in the cities, and you never saw a blizzard?  I hope this post helps you.  It is basically a hurricane only its snow and ice and winds that are unreal.  Happy New Year everyone. 

John Chapter 4

And every spirit that confesses not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of Anti Christ, where for yet have heard that it should come: And now already is IT in the world.

They are of the world, therefor speak they of the world heareth them.

We of God: he that knoweth God heareth us. If not of God heareth not us.

He that loveth not, knoweth not God for God is love.

PS 

Dont shoot the messenger.  This is what the famous apostle John said.

I have been reading the many prophesies around the world.  I looked into the Hennoch. It seems to be as close to what I imagine in my mind.  Its quite a mess. So I will post what I read.

I will do that in a moment, but I would like to explain before beginning that I am not authorised to give exact indication of years in an official manner.
If the human being of Earth continues to live in the same way as he has done up to now—forming his thoughts and feelings in the same manner, indulging in the same actions as he has hitherto—then the words of the prophecies of Henoch could not be any clearer.
The point in time at which these prophecies will begin to be fulfilled will be when a Pope will no longer reside in Rome. All of Europe will then fall victim to a terrible punishment by evil powers. The Christian religion will collapse and the churches and monasteries will end up in ruins and ashes.
Monstrous forces will be created by science and will be released by the military forces and armies as well as by terrorists, causing great destruction. Millions and even billions of people will be killed by acts of terrorism, by wars and civil wars; and finally, in some parts of the world, every third human being, and, in other places, every fourth human being, will lose his or her life. The nations of the East will rise against the nations of the West, the West against the East. Many deaths will be inflicted upon the people by fighter and bomber aircraft, and bombs and rockets will destroy and annihilate smaller and larger villages and cities.
The people will be completely powerless against all this and will live through 888 days of Hell on Earth, suffering hunger and plagues which will claim even more lives than the war itself. The time will be severe as never before experienced on Earth. Ultimately, nothing can be bought or sold any longer. All provisions will be rationed; and if a human being steals even a small piece of bread, he/she will have to pay for it with his/her life. Many waters will mix with human blood and turn red, as once in the past the Nile in Egypt turned red with blood.
And it will be that the fanatics of Islam will rise up against the countries of Europe and all will shake and quiver. Everything in the West will be destroyed; England will be conquered and thrown down to the lowest level of misery. And the fanatics and warriors of Islam will retain their power for a long time. However, not only Europe will be affected but ultimately all the countries and peoples of the Earth, as the great horror expands to a war that will encompass the entire world.
After the turn of the millennium, the papacy will exist only a short period. Pope John Paul II is the third from last in this position. After him, only one additional pontificate will follow. Then a Pontifex Maximus follows who will be known as Petrus Romanus. Under his religious rule, the end of the Catholic Church will come, a total collapse becoming inevitable. That will be the beginning of the worst catastrophe that will ever have befallen the human beings and the Earth. Many Catholic clerics, priests, bishops, cardinals and many others will be killed and their blood will flow in streams. But also the reformed version of Christianity will become just as infinitely small, as does Catholicism.

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Once, when God poured his love on me.  I imagined later that if I could visualize this, it was like sparkling diamonds and bright white or clear liquid if I could paint Gods love. I know we think of love in terms of red or pink...not so with this feeling. If I could touch God, it was like the softest mink all white and snuggly. If I could taste Gods love? It might have been the sweetest white wine and a little bubbly.  If I could smell him, it might have had the aroma of a whiff of fresh air from a warm rain on a crisp spring morn...in the meadow, surrounded by pines.  Yes, my senses feel that is what Gods love was like, only I cannot begin to describe it, thats the best I can do with what my own experiences have been.  Most delicious, and infinate love which I know goes forever. It has no beginning or end.   His love is measureless.

There is currently several prophets from around the world. There is one in India her nae Vassula.

Below is her prophesy before 9-11

 As for those who have not yet received My visitation, many torments await them, the Day of the Lord will come upon them too, and what a day that will be! I shall be swift to show My Mercy, provided you repent... I will show My Mercy and gather all of you from everywhere under heaven; but before that, I, the Author of this Love Hymn tell you, unless the world in its wickedness turns to Me, repenting, rendering love for evil, what can happen to you all will outline all historical records of purification! There is no fervent repentance, no real compunction... the nations are in uproar, and their achievements are the measure of their godlessness... all the earth will suffer unless I hear a true cry of repentance; ah, and those who stand up on platforms proclaiming peace and how, and in which way one has to establish peace among themselves, when these very ones are transgressing My commandments and are at war with Me, how do they expect in their right mind to bring peace? (September 30, 2002).

On the 11th September 2001 the world was scarred with the fall of the two towers, taking away so many lives, among them many innocent people. Horrific apocalyptic scenes were shown to the world, and despite this horror that came upon us, instead of truly turning to God and repenting, the world became worse than before and was set for war. Instead of understanding that this happened because of our own faults, sins, guilt, apostasy and the world's rejection of God, we continued to listen to Satan and go on his way rather than the way God was showing us.

On the 24th December 1991, on the eve of Christ's birth this message was given to us by Christ who was very offended:

"I come today and offer all mankind My Peace, but very few listen. Today I come with peace-terms and a message of Love, but the peace I am offering is blasphemed by the earth, and the Love I am giving them is mocked and jeered in this Eve of My Birth. Mankind is celebrating these days without My Holy Name. My Holy Name has been abolished and they take the day of My Birth as a great holiday of leisure, worshipping idols. Satan has entered into the hearts of My children, finding them weak and asleep. I have warned the world..."(December 24, 1991)

Christ is showing us that He is offended when we celebrate Christmas by gathering our family without remembering the real cause; Christ's Birth.

There are so many that are lost today. Those we love, cannot find God anymore and are immersed in the world of materialism, vanity, lusts, jealousy, scorn for the living God. We can only pray for the world.  God is angry with our abortions, our desires for drink, good times, rather than true rependtance and treating his Sabboth as a Holy day. 

I have found a number of prophets and I continue to read them.  It speaks the same message given to me.  Repent and pray.

I just got the best email. So I will forward to all.

The Sandpiper
by
Robert Peterson


She was six years old when I first met her on the beach near where I live.

I drive to this beach, a distance of three or four miles, whenever the world begins to close in on me. She was building a sand castle or something and looked up, her eyes as blue as the sea.

"Hello," she said.

I answered with a nod, not really in the mood to bother with a small child.

"I'm building," she said.

"I see that. What is it?" I asked, not really caring.

"Oh, I don't know, I just like the feel of sand."

That sounds good, I thought, and slipped off my shoes.

A sandpiper glided by.

"That's a joy," the child said.

"It's a what?"

"It's a joy. My mama says sandpipers come to bring us joy."

The bird went gliding down the beach. Good-bye joy, I
muttered to myself, hello pain, and turned to walk on. I was depressed, my life seemed completely out of balance.

"What's your name?" She wouldn't give up.

"Robert," I answered. "I'm Robert Peterson."

"Mine's Wendy... I'm six."

"Hi, Wendy."

She giggled. "You're funny," she said.

In spite of my gloom, I laughed too and walked on.

Her musical giggle followed me."Come again, Mr. P," she called. "We'll have another happy day.."

The next few days consisted of a group of unruly Boy Scouts, PTA meetings, and an ailing mother. The sun was shining one morning as I took my hands out of the dishwater. I need a sandpiper, I said to myself, gathering up my coat. The ever-changing balm of the seashore awaited me. The breeze was chilly but I strode along, trying to recapture the serenityI needed.


"Hello, Mr. P," she said. "Do you want to play?"

"What did you have in mind?" I asked, with a twinge of annoyance.

"I don't know. You say."

"How about charades?" I asked sarcastically.

The tinkling laughter burst forth again. "I don't know what that is."

"Then let's just walk."

Looking at her, I noticed the delicate fairness of her face.

"Where do you live?" I asked.

"Over there." She pointed toward a row of summer cottages.

Strange, I thought, in winter.

"Where do you go to school?"

"I don't go to school.. Mommy says we're on vacation"

She chattered little girl talk as we strolled up the beach,
but my mind was on other things. When I left for home, Wendy said it had been a happy day.

Feeling surprisingly better, I smiled at her and agreed.

Three weeks later, I rushed to my beach in a state of near panic. I was in no mood to even greet Wendy. I thought I saw her mother on the porch and felt like demanding she keep her child at home.

"Look, if you don't mind," I said crossly when Wendy caught up with me. "I'd rather be alone today."

She seemed unusually pale and out of breath.

"Why?" she asked.

I turned to her and shouted, "Because my mother died!" and thought, "My God, why was I saying this to a little child?

"Oh," she said quietly, "then this is a bad day."

"Yes," I said, "and yesterday and the day before and -- oh, go away!"


"Did it hurt?" she inquired.

"Did what hurt?" I was exasperated with her, with myself.

"When she died?"

"Of course it hurt!" I snapped, misunderstanding, wrapped up in myself. I strode off.

A month or so after that, when I next went to the beach, she wasn't there. Feeling guilty, ashamed, and admitting to myself I missed her, I went up to the cottage after my walk and knocked at the door. A drawn looking young woman with honey-colored hair opened the door.

"Hello," I said, "I'm Robert Peterson. I missed your little girl today and wondered where she was."

"Oh, yes, Mr. Peterson, please come in. Wendy spoke of you so
much. I'm afraid I allowed her to bother you. If she was a nuisance, please, accept my apologies."

"Not at all --! she's a delightful child." I said, suddenly realizing that I meant what I had just said.

"Wendy died last week, Mr. Peterson. She had leukemia. Maybe she didn't tell you."

Struck dumb, I groped for a chair. I had to catch my breath.

"She loved this beach, so when she asked to come, we couldn't say no. She seemed so much better here and had a lot of what she called
happy days. But the last few weeks, she declined rapidly..." Her voice
faltered, "She left something for you, if only I can find it. Could you wait a moment while I look?"
I nodded stupidly, my mind racing for something to say to this lovely young woman.
She handed me a smeared envelope with "MR. P" printed in bold childish letters. Inside was a drawing in bright crayon hues -- a yellow beach, a blue sea, and a brown bird. Underneath was carefully printed:

A SANDPIPER TO BRING YOU JOY.

Tears welled up in my eyes, and a heart that had almost forgotten to love opened wide. I took Wendy's mother in my arms. "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry," I uttered over and over, and we wept together.

The precious little picture is framed now and hangs in my study. Six words -- one for each year of her life -- that speak to me of harmony, courage, and undemanding love.

A gift from a child with sea blue eyes and hair the color of
sand who taught me the gift of love.

NOTE: This is a true story sent out by Robert Peterson. It
happened over 20 years ago and the incident changed his life forever. It serves as a reminder to all of us that we need to take time to enjoy living and life and each other.

The price of hating other human beings is loving oneself less.

Life is so complicated, the hustle and bustle of everyday traumas can make us lose focus about what is truly important or what is only a momentary setback or crisis.


This week, be sure to give your loved ones an extra hug, and by
all means,take a moment.... even if it is only ten seconds, to stop and smell the roses.

This comes from someone's heart, and is read by many and now I share it with you...

May God Bless everyone who receives this! There are NO
coincidences!


Everything that happens to us happens for a reason. Never brush
aside anyone as insignificant. Who knows what they can teach us?


I wish for you, a sandpiper!

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I remember it was a particulary difficult time for me back then around 1989. I was going through alot of changes. Going through a mid life crisis I suppose.  Worried about my life, my family, my marriage. It was a terrible time.

Sometimes, I think we worry so much about our own selves we get tunnel vision.  We forget the feelings of others, what they are going through. We forget also the bigger picture such as the problems in the world.  Im sure that has happened to everyone at one time or another.

So here I was in my own silly world, fretting about my simple life and causing myself terrible anxiety. I got this frantic need to know what would happen to me, tomorrow and future.

One night, I had a dream. I walked into this small room, there was a man there with a bald head and skinny, he was sitting crossed legged on the floor. I sat down too. He wore a white tunic. It was kind of hazy looking. His facial structure was long, narrow face, small lips, his eyes were brown i think.

He said "Why must you know the future?"  I said I really dont know, I just want to know. He just stared at me like I was strange.  He said nothing. End of dream.

The next day I woke up to have my coffee. I grabbed a lot of paper, and pen. I had this strong urge to write, but I had no idea why.  I began writing from the sound of a voice. A faint far off voice was dictating. He first went into my marriage.  Then, he said that love was happenstance at times in our relationship and many men foil a good relationship...basically he said roll with it.  It happens.

He said, that the world is in such need of greater attention. That the United States which has been given so much has wrought upon itself chastizements which will come soon. He said the creator is very upset about abortions, about immorality, violence, so many atrocities in a free country that we have filled the cup and it threatens to overflow against us.  He said that the one particular sin God hates more than anything is the enormous amounts of abortions. Little souls that were supposed to be born an did not have the chance. They are filling up the heavens.  this has Gods attention more than all the rest.

He said, that soon all those deaths will ring in the response of the natural order, in the form of a violent response against humanity. He said, He that has more, requires of itself greater responsibility.  America must be accountable. Balance must be restored.  If you want to know what to do, then Pray for your country.  Pray for an end to abortions.  If this continues, there will be consequences.

In the following years, of 1990 to 2009 - very much happened to us.  Abortions increased. The first wave of troubles came in the gulf war, nine eleven, iraq war, katrina, tornado's and horrific winters. 

I dont know if that was a real angel or not.  But what he said was true. 

There is a world of difference between liking and loving.  Liking is in the emotion, liking is not subject completely to our control, but love can be commanded.

Liking is a reaction, like a hiccup!

Loving is a decision or a reslutuion. We cannot like everyone, but we can love everyone.

lONELINESS

No one is lonely except he who is self centered and who cuts himself off from communion with his fellow man.  The basic cause of loneliness is the excessive desire to be loved.

For this creates an atmosphere of lovelessness. The more we seek to be loved, the less we are loved. The less we are loved the less lovable we become. The less capable we become of loving anyone else. Like a bird caught in a net, we deepen our tragedy.

The more intense the love, the less we think of a scarfice involved to secure what we love. The measure of our love for anything is the amount of pain we are willing to suffer to gain the object loved, or to avoid what is offensive and wrong. Love may be defined as a mutual self giving and self out pouring which ends in self recovery. Love, I say forgives everything except one thing and that the refusal to love.  Love by its vry nature is not selfish, but generous. It seeks not its own but the good of others. The measure of love is not the pleasure it gives, that is the way the world judges it, but the joy and peace it can purchase for others.

Love always cmes as an underserved gift. 

Possession without desire is a tragic outcome.  Egotism comes into play.

---------------Love is a choice. is the name of the book

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We ask ourselves what is our love all about?  How do we command our selves to love the unlovable?  We challenge ourselves daily to so love the world as God loves us.

I read over and over that the more intense the love, the less we think of a sacrifice involved to secure what we love.  We do this with our children, our bosses sometimes, and our friends. our lovers, and spouses...and Christ, if we choose to love.

Love love love...I guess its a choice, so my friends we contemplate this thing called love.

Whenever I am a bit down, I pray.  It seems when I do this, all the needs I have are right at my feet.  Thank you Lord.

Some folks just pray when they need something. I pray every day and so its become a great friendship.  I needed that so much. When I see beauty I know who created it and I feeel good.  It is just knowing Im not ever alone in my thoughts. Its all good. 

I dont understand people who do really bad things and how can one go through life that way, pretty dark if you ask me.

Thank you for the friends you have brought into my life. 

SM

It was odd the way it started.  I live so far away from "home" that I find it so intriguing that I am the one they visit.  Perhaps because it doesnt scare me at all.

When Mother passed away she left behind her slightly slow sister she worried sick about all the time.  When her sister got sick, Mother came to me in a dream.  She was frantic. jumping up and down crying "She is infected"  I called home and discovered that she fell and was in the hospital.  They released her but she was so unable to care for herself.  Why did they do that?  awful.  She was readmitted by the insistance of family. Apparently my aunt told the nurses she didnt have any family.

She died very soon after that and it was sad.

My Aunt came to me in a dream.  She was dressed exactly how she was at the funeral. Only I didnt go. The sisters told me later after the dream.  She was sitting on my Moms couch and my aunt sat next to me on the other side.  The one aunt was furious because she said "What am I gay now"  I said WHat are you mad about?

I learned that my sister had put my Moms sister in my other aunts grave by mistake. So we had to make new arrangements an they had to pay for a new site. Which wasnt fair because the original grave was her own already paid for. Luck would have it she was cremated.  My cousin called the house the next day and she was really mad about her Moms grave being occupied. I told her I already know..she told me. Apparently my Aunt told my cousin that I am the one to go to for problems.  Anyhow, it was all taken care of properly and may she rest in peace.

My Dad comes to visit me at night and sits on my bed.  He does so whenever he is worried about me.  I think they both come at times just to comfort me when we are upset.  Its nice to know.  My Grandmother once came to me. I was in her new digs in heaven. We sat down to coffee and cookies.  She told me I saw your new baby boy. While he is cute, your not feeding him properly with vegies. I said he hates them. She said lay off the sweets.  I told her I would try to cut down.  It was strange the way she just glowed wth this yellow hugh.  So happy.  She was always sweet but firm.  I liked her very much.

I have lived in the boonies for years, and enjoy alot of silence with nature. Maybe, I am just open to the other side, because i dont always have the world in my face anymore.  I dont know. 

Time for bed.

There is alot of talk about abortions, the pill, the morning after pill. 

When I was growing up,  a young girl next door at the age of 14  havin her first child. Mom and Dad there to help for awhile.  It was very very hard on her. She was bright, articulate an a strong math student. I felt so bad for her.  She got married and divorced by the time she was 16.  At age 20 she remarried and had a son, but her husband beat her.  She divorced.  Years later after she built up a huge career without a high school education, she had remarried again.  This time, it was a good marriage. They now have four children.  All of these kids are executives and engineers.  They are doing super, thanks to her strong parental skills and the character to hang in there even after her Dad committed suicide..through no fault of her own.  Life is a trough of misery.  Be couragious. 

My two sisters got married young, married and divorced too. The youngest is  blind and could not support herself. She and her husband were alcoholics.  Her husband left her in the middle of her second pregnancy. Food stamps, SS, did not come through for her right away. She learned about hunger. Humility. He never paid much support for her. In order to get SS disability, she had to work six months. try doing that when you are legally blind, and pregnant.  Well, she did it as a waitress and shook like crazy with nerves bad and all.   She survived.  After years of scrounging and scrimping on her own though. She one day went to work with a friend. They had an accident. She skidded out of the car and slid twenty feet on her back underneath another car. She now is severely disabled.  They gave her 900K though. She married well and lives well.  PS>I have alot of sisters.

One sister, had multiple abortions and used it like it was birth control.  even at 7 months along, she got an abortion.  It took her ten years to forgive herself of stupidity.  i do think, she has emotional scars and thats why she drinks.  Sad.

I do not believe that abortion or pills are the right way to go.  The right way to go is abstenance and count your self worthy of a good and pure relationship, someday. Some say that is impractical.  I disagree.  As you read of two different scenerios' You can pretty much reason that it has nothing to do with financing a child, with love it finds its way.  The other choices/like my one sister, the effects of those choices follow you around for life.  Who would want that, such unhappiness.  

I tell you there is no greater joy than creating a human being and seeing it through.  There is no greater accomplishment then seeing those kids grow up to be productive and give back to you tenfold for all the effort.  granted, sometimes its a crap shoot...but its still worth it.   

Last night, my husband and I went out to the Pool Room across from the house. We built it five years ago.  I did not intend to learn to play, I thought it was just nonsense.  However, boredom got the best of me or his nagging.

Now I love the game.  My husband used to play pool at the taverns years ago. He loves this game more than anything.  Anyway, now he has a hard time beating me if he has a few beers.  But most of the time its even steven.  I do like it, very challenging and  I love surprising myself.  So yeah.  Its cool.